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adam said to eve
what is for dinner tonight
eve replyed ribs dear

this torturous sensation
moves through me

in a languid rhythm~

you once told me that
I haunt the world inside you~

I invade your deameanor~
and you wonder what it is about me~

~~ITS MY SECRET DARLIN~~

I CANT GET NO SATISFACTION

~a game~


evade .. space
battle with ..
..... stopped hands
... .... is desired
fingers .. ... cloak
half life ... .... ....
.... clippings
Ive ......
...... hunger ....
Ive....

Love can die, as fast as it comes,slowly and gently, makes you numb.
it is the Dirt that falls between your fingers,
Water that rolls off my skin,
Jack .....
my body broke in 3 million peices for you
my love for you grew like a patch of wildflowers
Clinging to the soil of compromise
a beautiful mouth once said
To awake no more is to sleep forever
sweet dreams....
JACK

the body that I am at this moment holding will one day
stop
he will be forgotten and slung under 6 pounds of yellow flowers
and they will wilt together
fuse as one into indifference
and for eyes he will have dimes and nickels
no longer smelling the world on your flesh

flesh like flowers
pressed flowers stuck between the 567 page of Tom Clancy's Red Rabbit
and on that day I will have wished I could have seen with you
All the wonders of outside your windows
and it will be silent yet deafening
silent yet deafening

25 hours ago... woke up in Downtown Dc
18 hours ago...Alexandria Va with cristen sitting on a pier in the Plutomic
15 hours ago...Baltimore getting ready to fly
8 hours ago...putting money in slot machines in Vegas
4 hours ago...crawled into bed in SLC utah
0 hours ago... woke up
1 hour from now... class
5 hours from now...band practice
10 hours from now... coffee overload
13 hours from now... Sleep

i woke up on the floor at 3.1416 this morning
Head first feet still wrapped up In warm beDdings
hEad first into the unknown formally known as a jungle of bloody shag carpet
and now ,can/t sEe what it really is
linEs and shapes and numbers in greyscale and hidden messages from a land far far away
spiraling around my head at 3.1416 miles a circle
and i dreamed a sequence of fibinachi,
he said it so i Know its true & you can have your pie
you can eat it to

seduce y
Reduce o
seduce U
reduce &
seduce m
reduce e
~Truce~

you and I ?

I am starting this entry at exactly 1:07 am ~ after a rather lucritive gig ~~~~

My hair smells like smoke my feet are ssssssssoooooo sore and my face is all grimy I was fighting off 2 lesbians by closing time..... I spend 3 hours on set up adn take down because we had to bring our own sound equiptment and everything ~ and....it was one of the best gigs ever !!!!! WE ROCKED MODIGGITIES HARD ~ every one was dancing and going absolutly crazy it wasnt till we were packing up that the owner came up and told us that they never never had people dance ~ I guess we just rock to hard to sit still
we will be frequenting that place now ~ saturday and friday night
~ attheendof the night after realizing that Jackie Bipesbi (the woman we were doing a fundraiser for)s compition in office dropped out of the ellection so she was atomatically in~~ we got to keep 80% of the proceeds from the door 10$ a person ~ we made 1000$ tonight and an additional 180$ for playing this one Loretta lynn 2 steppin song called *good Girl* I let that place with 150$ clear~~~~
and it would have been more but we are already putting (some) money towards our next cd ~ which will be stictly originals ~ god I had a blast I was really going to town on Drive my car tonight ~ I smoked my fretboard all up ! :p
now im beat so I will be going to bed now ~ goodnight all and have a good day tomarrow and a good week and a good month year and life ~ IF YOU CAN READ THIS IT MEANS YOUR SPECIAL ~ hehe
ciao xoxox, hugs and kisses
Jes....viovetta...luvelle

HERE I AM~
RIGHT HERE
IN THE INFAMOUS COMPUTER LAB~
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I have this one song stuck in my head today~ it goes like this ~ Mabey some day we'll meet again when our 2 roads hit the same dead end and OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH Im countin the days ~ cause you got something that I never since seen a record smile and a heart thats clean and OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH im good at countin days
WIth you sence of ambition and your parents amunition~ I hope we die young from a fire in your kitchen
COme .... little angel come die next to me BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH.

OH GGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD MMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKEEEEEEEEEE IIIIIIIITTTTTTTTT GGGGOOOOOOOOOO AAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I will be subsituting my last class for a trip to Cuppers and hopefully fate will give me my way ~

My heart is SSSSOOOOOOOO anxious today

today~cuppers
tomarrow~indigogirls
thenextday~Modiggities
thenextnextday~studying and darlene time
thenextnextnextday~two midterms \

*sigh*

Lets see here I got up this morning at 9;30 for some strange reason my brain thought it was 10:30 so I jumped out of bed and through some random articals of clothing on and got my ass to the bus stop.... Now I am at school over an hour early so I have decided to write something hopefully it wont be to substanceless.

First of all let me start by saying I have a new favorite on campus haven. I want to sit all day this room (aka the art buildings aturium) with its calming peach walls and its endless ceilings.. I have this daydream of me standing on the balcony overlooking the atrium and just jumping through the floor. Past all the people who dont appriciate its comfort and protection. I dont know why it is that I am drawn to this room so much but I can be having the worst day and I will go there and my worries are shed till just me remains, also I have never been the kind of person that finds meditaion easy due to an overactive brain/imagination but I bet if I could be in that room while I attempted it I would reach nirvana.. or something~ I feel almost frozen in time when I am there either that or frozen in my mind. Funny the connection between time and the mind and my peach coloured room

...... I am now in the Buisness school comp lab *looks around the computer lab*

There is a stalky short guy sitting to the left of me right now *harhar* all I can hear is the sound of his and my fingers competing on the keyboards. He has blonde hair and a blue eyes a light slightly freckled complection and a red shirt advertising Ute Pride. He seems to be a only a few years older than me but he is wearing a wedding ring... Its crazy how young people get married out here only to realize that juvinile lust is far from love.. NO WONDER UTAH IS #1 FOR PROZAC USE AMONG FEMALES!!!!! anyways he is doing some kind of math ICK I am going to dread the day I have to take a math class concidering I havent taken one since I was in 10th grade in highschool ~EEEP

Im really not sure what to write Half the time when I write a Whole entry......its so much easier to just put down a meaningless poem, but for some reason I feel like actually writing something today... all of the writing peices in here are more general thoughts than meaningful personal feelings/experiances . Its takes a way of words that I dont have to put down on a peice of paper things like... love and hate and other personal emotions in that magnitude

thought of the day~
I want to start getting to know people from the inside out it seems to me that its way to often visavera and that seems rather rediculous to me...

PSS.. Every one should smile at a random stranger today ~ :or else:

sweat and blood removed by TIDEs of
mediocure love devouring time
dripping brutallity are YOU to be,
or not
dissatisfied forevermore
inflicting neuclear winters we fought, wondering if were
stuck in the 196os
reading out of revelations
no pocket watch change
no name to call longdistance
millions of broken weathervains
mudpuddles formed by political pissants
our angels are advertising Walmart..again

Ok this is a totally new style for me Jesse tell me what you think

tonight I received by way of mail express aka Jesse ~ a very very very pretty (Rudbeckia Serotina) ;)



*blush*

thanks sugar

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A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because Im a woman" she told him.

I dont understand" he said. His Mom hugged him and said "And you never will"

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother cry for no reason"

"All women cry for no reason" was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

I began taking in pictures
mind caught on memories
provoking pure inverson
for the first time confronting myself head on
so many things I had mistakenly associated with her...
flaring truth,fingers to the wick
unrestained
cutting baggage out like cancer
and I remembered you
your breathe swirling in damp frost and snowflakes
wrapped up in goosebumps & your sweater, as we lay under oak branches in piles of auburn leaves
our hair entertwined with secrets
peering into the translucent skin of the sky
and your frail sillouette,dark as night
slicing sharp lines and soft curves in the raw silk of the moon
we spoke in tongues of abstract philosophy
folded with razors into my heart
there is a world and it is inside of this one
and I havent craved for gravity since


thank you